I first noticed i had a problem during the first week of june 08 when my mum noticed a patch of hair missing where my crown was,i saw my gp the same day in tears he informed me it was alopecia and "would get worse befroe it got better"i left in tears not knowing what to do.I have had pcos for 10 years and i was put on the bcp to regulate things and i thought nothing more of it.

in jan 08 i decided to stop the bcp as at 35 i thought i was getting on a bit and i thought i'd see how things went.....things were worse than ever so my gp suggested yasmin bcp and this was in may 08.After id descovered the patch i then began sufferering insomnia and i became photosensitive and generally felt as though i was going insane,my leg turned blue and my lips swelled and i ended up at A&E my scalp was itching and burning and i couldn't stop scatching.The doctor said i should stop the yasmin and then the excessive shedding began...everytime i showered i was completley covered in hair loosing around 200 hairs in one go.i couldn't look in the mirror anymore and i didn't like my husband or kids seeing me minus my headscarf.By the end of july i had lost 75% of my scalp hair...i could sense which hairs were going to fall,they had bulbs attached and they were in a ? at the root..i became a virtual hermit,i couldn't face my friends and even close family members and most of all my husband who i thought wouldn't find me atractive anymore.

all the doctors i have seen are sure the bcp had nothing to do with it and the dermo wants me to have light therapy to encourage growth but im scared of side effects he also wants to give me some drug which can cause kidney problems and im worried.i have changed completely as a person..i can't look anyone in the eye anymore.my gps don't see hair loss as a big deal but when you look in the mirror and a different person stares back at you it feels like the end of your world.i wouldn't get out of bed in the morning because i knew i had to endure the daily shed and start another day of falling to bits..the house was covered in hair and everytime i used the vacum it was full of my hair.

I have now lost around 90% of the very thick hair i had and i now own three wigs which have enabled me to carry on to the best of my ability,i now waiting for more test on my ovaries and kidneys as everything else has come back as around normal they think the pcos has caused the alopecia or it could be my immune system attacking the hair folicles or the yasmin but who knows.i  feel like shaking the damn doctor and screaming in his face..this is me..i need answers..i need hope..but most of all i need my hair back.

sorry for not adding any pics of me on my profile its just i can't look at old .photos of myself with my hair and i can't look at photos of me now.

i,d love to hear from anyone who can offer any light at the end of this dark tunnel.