This morning I woke up and decided today was the day.  The day I say so long to my hair.  

Half an hour after I was out of bed my bathroom floor had the remnants of what was my hair and my scalp felt naked and fuzzy.  I've decided to not shave my head completely for the moment but leave a little bit of fuzz...it keeps my scarf from falling off =)

As scary as this act was for me it was oddly liberating.  It was the first time in a long time that I made a difference in my happiness.  As silly as it may seem to some shaving off my hair was like letting go of the ill-will and unease every time I looked in the mirror.  Another first for me was walking around with my head held high.  It was almost like when I was just wearing a hat to cover my bald spot I felt like I had to hide.  Now, without any hair I feel more comfortable oddly enough.  I enjoyed wearing dangly earrings, make-up and nice clothes.  I feel like I'm turning over a new leaf and all it took was 10 minutes in the bathroom with a shaver =).

Now, I'm not 100% comfortable but this is a huge step for me and I feel like I can begin to control things again.  So many of my worries and insecurities were connected to what hair I had..  By eliminating the cause it freed me in so many ways.  

I'm now looking forward to shopping for cute scarves, fun earrings and clothes that get me noticed =)

I'd like to thank everyone on here who has been so supportive and has given me so much great advice.  It has been illuminating and educational to talk to women with some of the same fears, worries and experiences I have had and still have and will have.  You ladies are amazing...even in the few days I've been on here it's made such a big difference in my life and I'm awed and humbled by all your strength, wisdom and humor.