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Playing Catch Up
3:21 PM on Feb. 20, 2008
Sorry it's been a while since I logged in. I unfortunately work in an industry that feeds of the political campaigns, so we have been busy, which means I get less free time then usual. Last time I l logged on was right before my last go around with my dermatologist. I seriously hate going to see them. I like the doctor, she is very pleasant to deal with, but I always feel like she is humoring me. I know there is something wrong with me. She tells me that I may very well have TE, but there is nothing to be done and I have to wait it out. It might be 3 months, maybe 6 months, maybe more. I feel foolish even complaining to her, like I should just sit through this miserable period of watching my hair fall out, strand by strand.
This time was a bit different. I sat in the waiting room checking out the other patients. There was a woman there with a very bad wig on. I wondered how she lost her hair. I wondered if that was the only wig should could afford, or if maybe she had no one to help her pick one out. It made me embarrased that I was even upset at all. My hair was only thinning - I still had hair. This woman looked so sad and it pained me so much to see her there, looking around at the other people in the office. She hid herself and you could see how much embarrased she was. When the nurse finally called my name, I walked by her. As I passed her, I stopped and told her she looked beautiful. The smile she gave me was small, but it made me feel better. I can only hope I did the same for her.
After that I felt better going in there. The Dr. said my hair did seem to be getting healthier, but I was still shedding and had a small patch on my hairline in front that was very thin and that concerned her. In addition to that I had dermatitis, and the scratching was probably adding to the shedding. She asked me how I felt and I wasn't sure I could put it into words right there. My once glorious hair was gone and all I was left with was thinning brittle hair with a lot more greys. Oh yeah - apparently a majority of the hair that was attempting to grow back is coming back gray. It is an added treat to this nightmare. In the end I told her I was having a hard time with the loss, but I still wanted to fight it as best as I can. She gave me some shampoo and treatment for the dermatitis and asked me come back in three months. Same old same.
So now I am a couple of weeks into the treatment. My hair is less itchy and I did discover that the new Head and Shoulders Silky Conditioner works well. At least what little hair I have left is well conditioned. I haven't seen any more regrowth, but it is too early to tell. That is all I have for now.
¡Ciao Muchachas!
~ M
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