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THIS SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSs
7:59 PM on Jul. 14, 2008

I think have to cancel my appointment....  This isn't a good financial time.... some things have come to a head and I am realizing with my appt less than a week away, I have to cancel it/postpone it.  It is not part of my insurance network so it is going to be a hefty expenditure.....  this sucks.  really sucks.  I don't even think it would help .... as many doctors as I have seen I just feel like it would be mroe of the same but instead of a 10 dollar copay I would be paying helfty out of pocket.....  there are no 'for sure' answers/solutions that I can just do it and know that I might get answers...

I hate my hair , I hate what it has done to my social life.... I hate what it has done to my confidence.  I hate this. I never imagined anything like this.  By the way, want to say it in a post rather than just in my own mind. I definitly drink more. A lot more. Just thought of it tonight how much more I drink, like I am trying to desensitize myself........ 

Just one more time... This SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11


Comments (3)
MelissaMC - 6:20 AM on Jul. 16, 2008  [ message ]
Hey Julie,
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. It's not fair that we have to go through this, and insurance SHOULD cover this, I've run in to the same problem. At this point I think my $18 copay is such a waste of money. I never get any answers and I just feel worse and worse. I hate my hair too! I understand!! Hang in there Julie, it's hard, I know.....

Melissa
Misty - 5:22 PM on Jul. 15, 2008  [ message ]
Julie, I'm sorry you are sad and mad and confused! There are so many unknowns and it all sucks. Will it get worse, will treatments work? Who knows! I think it's ok to have good days and bad... lord knows that where I am at the moment. Just when I feel like I am a step ahead, I fall to pieces again... over whatever.

Hang in there... I totally understand the financial aspect of it... I'm crossing my fingers for ya!

Misty
lisa1969 - 10:05 PM on Jul. 14, 2008  [ message ]
Julie, I'm so sorry you're having such an incredibly tough time right now. I totally understand the financial aspect of all of this. It's ridiculous that we have to pay money that we earn to investigate this when our own docs won't take us seriously. I'm afraid to tally how much I've spent on this but it's in the thousands. Yes, thousands. And to be honest, I am no further forward than I was before. Yes, I'm on three different medications for my hair, but none of that has helped. Will it? I dunno, but I'm no longer optimistic. We get so desperate for help from some of these jerky docs. I've seen seven or eight docs (many at my own expense) in looking for answers.

I can relate to you on many levels. I too hate my hair. I hate that it's robbed me of my self-confidence (which was never high to begin with) and I hate that I always feel self-consicous. We all get that. And yes, we have coping mechanisms, whether it's drinking, junk food or whatever. I wish I could give you a hug right now and tell you it's all going to be OK. :( If I can help you in any way, please call on me. I understand where you are coming from. I mean, geez, I'm in freaking therapy because of all this!! Take care, OK? -- Lisa