Hi Tracy, Tennis-- that is cool. I alwasy wanted to play but was frustrated easy with it. Cna you play it indoors when it is hot by you? My husband called adn sadi it was sooo hott that alot of people were dropping out because of the...
I am 33. I feel that I am middle age and I want to experience new ideas and new ways of thinking. I choose now to believe that we live off our thoughts, we are guided by our mind. I have been reading a lot lately. I never knew how powerful books could be until now.
When I was younger I just wanted to be social and play and get attention. I wanted people to see me and to be a bright shiny star in other people's life. Well, what about my life? I was no longer filling up me. I needed more. I wanted to find out more about religion and about other cultures and what secrets are truly out there. I want to live fully, to be glad to get out of bed in the morning. (Some days are hard when my scalp shows more and I feel bad about my hair).
I have had some set backs that I plan to write more on later. Such as a dealing with a strong willed child, losing my mom to cancer, the blessings of being a mother to a 5 and 6 1/2 year old. Why having a twin is so much fun, dealing with hair loss and the day I was told that I have female pattern baldness- diffuse hair thinning at 33 and it gets worse as you age - oh Sh-t! Talk about horrid news. Geez!
I want to use this as an opportunity to grow inside and find a way to cope with this without it destroying me. I want to learn and grow. Some times it is hard, kids want to go swimming and I don't want my hair to get wet. So, this is my petty tyrant and I hope to use it as a way to evolve and grow.
I want to add some spice, some flavor and since I am now 33 and open to reading these types of materials, I am ready for it. I am now reading the whole series By Carlos Castaneda. I am almost done with book 7 and it has really helped me cope and at times change my outlook.
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I think I truly first noticed a slight change when I was 21. I showed the small area by my temple to my mom, sister and step mom and they said it was nothing. That it was all in my head. I went to see a dermatologist and she said it was nothing to worry about. I again noticed a change after having my first son. He is now 6 1/2. I saw a dermatologist and he said I had male pattern baldness. I went home and cried, I was 8 month pregnant and was just told I had male pattern baldness. I told my OB and she said that it is normal with hormones and not to worry. My hair 6 months later grew back and I was happy again. I then noticed a change after my second son and this time it seemed not to let up until he was one yrs old. He is not 5. 12 month later my hair grew back thick and healthy. I noticed it again 2 years ago. I decided to get rid of my IUD thinking it was the cause. No change. I tried Rogaine 2% and after 1 year thought it wasn't helping so stopped and then kept having horrid shedding. Decided to tell my husband and he found a good dermatologist in Oregon. She took two biopsies and told me I have female pattern hair loss. I cried in her office and real good to. So embarrassed, my husband just starred at me like he was sooo surprised. It no longer was all in my head. I came home and cried. I felt life was over. I had decided to quit my job and wanted to hid. This happened Dec 2007 and am still dealing with it today. Since starting the Rogaine 5% AND SPIRONOLACTONE I have had less shedding and my hair seems at the moment not to be shedding so I am dealing with this better. So for now I am reading and coping. I am spending time with my boys and family and cleaning like crazy. I think the best thing for me now is to release and I find that I can do that on this blog and by connecting with others. I also feel that working out in any form is crucial and helps release endorphins that cheer me up.
I can go on and on but please see my blog, I call my release at: http://shanlaree.blogspot.com
Tennis is frustrating for me too....but I have had zero experience previosuly and I am highly uncoordinated....I am trying to accept the challenge with open arms. The place where I am taking lessons only has outdoor courts, but my class is from 8-9pm so it is a bit cooler then. I am trying yoga tapes too, but I am so inflexible, and do not know how to do poses properly that it is really frustrating. I think it is great that you are still training. Maybe your kids will start one day, and you can be a biking troupe :)
Hi, Shanralee, thanks for reading my blog about my stupid therapist. To be honest, I was really disappointed. I had finally gotten to the place where I realized that I needed some help in trying to deal with this, that the people around me couldn't look at this objectively because they love me. I have found a new therapist and I'm hoping she can help me deal with this. Because I haven't been dealing with it well. I'm sorry about your mom. My mom died from cancer, too, when I was 23. It's just awful. She never got to meet my husband and my daughter and she would have loved them! Anyway, I think it's great that you can talk to your sister about this and to your husband. I'll keep you posted on my therapy, if you want. I have to say that I've been feeling better since I found this site but yesterday I had a little meltdown. I love your thoughts about reading more. I need to figure out how to turn this around and to be more positive about everything I do have, which is so much. I've lost perspective on this, I'm afraid, so I welcome any ideas on how to get it back. I too work out and I love it. I feel good about myself and about how I'm transforming my body. I can control THAT at least. :) Thanks again for your suggestions. Take care, Lisa
Hi - read your comment on the wig... so thought I'd clarify. The photo is an off the rack wig by Noriko. The Amy Presense wig was ordered but arrived in the wrong color (I had custom picked 3 colors to blend together). The owner re-ordered it but we wanted a color sample first, and the sample came in way too blond!!! so now I'm waiting for the 3rd try on the color. I really wanted it for the summer to be able to go in the pool and lake with it. Oh well. Thanks for asking. Do you wear a wig?
hey Shan, it is good to hear from you....it is hot out here. I am staying mostly indoors. Good for your husband for taking that long bike ride. As long as he drinks alot of water, he'll be just fine! Are you still training? I am trying to get some athleticism going. I started taking tennis lessons last week. We'll see how that goes. I hope life has been good for you in the past few months since we last chatted!!!!
Hi Shanlaree. I haven't been logged in in quite some time. We have had lots of baseball games and I'm the director of Vacation Bible School in July, so I've been busy working on that, too. We finally have a few free nights this next week. I'm excited to get caught up on laundry! And hopefully I'll finally get into a dermatologist to see if they have any new ideas on how to treat my slow but never ending hair loss. sighhhh.... I need to try something new soon. What I'm on is not working. Take care, KimM
Hi Shanlaree, I think it was you who mentioned Dr. Redmond (perhaps others have also). Anyway, I just want to say thanks. After a recent disappointing experience with a dermatology APRN, I read his book It's Your Hormones, and found it comforting. It got me thinking that in my case estrogen may play a big role and tweaking my birth contol prescription may help?? (I stopped menstruating at about 25), and it has given me something to run by the endocriniologist when I see her. Thanks again. How are you? Katrina
Hey Shanlaree, Thanks for the birthday wishes. I don't feel 30, Often times as the years creep past I find it hard mentally to keep up. I still feel 22 or 23, 25 tops! :)
Oh yeah, I was going to ask about Yoga... do you love it> I have been trying to get into a yoga class, but I just really don't have the time right now. We have so much going on with my husband recovering from surgery.
Do you just have one son? My oldest just turned 5 a couple of weeks ago. She is a good kid, but very much independent. We all call her strong-willed and my and James Dobson have had some time together with his book. She has calmed down SO much in the past year, but she still is very opinionated (and don't mind to share it) We start Kindergarten in the fall, and she is very excited about it. I am having a hard time dealing with it, and I am very surprised at myself. I never thought I would be THAT mom - but I am. I know she will do great, she is very outgoing... me, I am the one in trouble. :o)
Are you still on the Spiro? I tried it, and reacted to it. They suggested that I take Finasteride, but I didn't get it filled yet... I am a little scared of it. I have no plans for more babies, but there are such bad side effects, and no real hope that it will work.
I am shedding like crazy right now... is that normal with female hair loss? I know I always fo this in the spring, but this year it seems to be bothering me a little more than most years. Wonder why??
Thanks for the chat... I appreciate all the conversation that doesn't require me to "talk about it"
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